ity bity tid bits from CO Project '09

I'm sitting at a coffee shop, with several undeveloped ideas, Truths, and lessons that I would like to share with you; so, I'll just list a few of them to revisit later...

Topics for later expansion regarding what I've learned during the first 7 weeks of Colorado Project 2009:

- Radical interdependence is possible... as well as terrifying in the beginning

- I don't like the word needy, yet I am

- God is emotional and passionate, as well as caring/sensitive and ever present

- I choose depth over breadth in friendships

- I'm passionate about building up the body and investing in people's life

- The church dies within on generation if we're only passing down traditions and culture, not a relationship BECAUSE cheating on your Lover is different than breaking a rule

- I'm a bitch to my past

- "Lord, I need your strength to feel this weak"

- Discovered my love languages

- We don't do things for God, but because of Him

- Operating within a Kingdom perspective means creating time and space for God to work, reveal, tear down, expose, rebuild, and renew areas, concepts, thought patterns, and behaviors in my life... not trying harder to "understand" what God says

- Being a leader does not mean being without struggle or brokenness

- Being used by God and being needy are not mutually exclusive

- I still have a spiritual crush on the apostle Paul

- How we view ourselves at any given moment may have very little to do with who we really are

- I don't know what it means or looks like to be a daughter

- For me, writing is an act of courage, of hope, of ordering chaos, of desperation, of offering myself and my stories for the benefit of others and the relief of myself

- Snuggling is essential

- I'm more introverted than I thought

- Once given the opportunity, the Holy Spirit (along with the rest of the Triune) are actually true to their promises and character

- I do not see myself the way God sees me

- Herni Nouwen continually astounds me

- High functioning tear ducks can be a good thing

- AIA Staff women are remarkable

- Fierce, gentle, faithful, compassionate, strong, Spirit filled, quiet, long suffering, gracious, outgoing, beautiful, stunning, astounding, pure, holy, burdened, patient, encouraging, intelligent, edifying, challenging, intense, caring, kind, bold, courageous, wise, discerning, loving, selfless... descriptors of my beloved sisters in Christ and eternal friends

- Inductive Bible Studies = happy Hannah

- Self Rejection is intimately intertwined with and the catalyst for most the lies we believe

- Full time ministry :] ?

- "Hannah, its like you're from another planet and have just come to visit us here on Earth"... I like that, I am strange, which means I'm no longer trying to be who people expect or want me to be, rather I'm my own silly, serious, genuine, passionate, and tender self

- Greek and Hebrew = YEEAAAA!

- I find fellow nerds incredibly endearing, can I get a whoop whooop for the OED?

- In City Park, between the towering Oaks, I experienced God. His comfort, power, peace, and joy because I seek Him. There I was snot-ridden, collapsed face first on the ground, with physical scars forming. Thanks to the SPECIAL, once again...

- False representations and incongruent messages

- I've been unfathomably blessed by having quality "Pauls" pour into my life

- Rowing is a sweet sport and fun to do- shout out UNC & UW rowers!

- Words are powerful

- I value efficiency and effectiveness, especially when submitting to my authorities

- I desire to live passionately, love radically, and speak tenderly

- Sin can only kill me, so I must set my heart and mind on the things above and put to death my carnal ways... easier said than done

- We're trying to be sugar when we should be salt

- This hasn't been some emotional experience or spiritual high, this has been challenging, hard, and even painful at some points, but those have been necessary parts of my growth and have lead to deep relationships, scary trust, receiving love, allowing God into the wounded areas, and embracing the unknown. God is in the process of re-wiring my brain and re-working how I view myself, amongst other things.

Stories, details, and reflections to come... just thought I'd give you a quick update!

Also, please comment and ask questions if there's anything specific you'd like to me expand on or share with you (even if its not up there bc this list is not exhaustive)

Read More 5 thoughtful people jotted me a note | Posted by The Following

Papaw's Peach Ice Cream

This dashing gentleman is my Papaw and this still-frame is a glimpse into our relationship, he's always imparting knowledge and holding my hand down paths of uncommon thought. In this photo we're making our coveted Homemade Peach Ice Cream in the front lawn of his rural home, using freshly picked peaches from his garden and our family recipe... our summertime tradition.

Papaw is an extraordinary man of virtue, faith, patience, intelligence, Truth, and compassion. Look at the picture again, do you see the cloud of knowledge that envelopes him? From this glimpse in time, do you see how he is imparting decades of experience through his childish grin and flat-palm of wisdom? Papaw's large, weathered hands would narrate stories of redemption while simultaneously improving/fixing every mechanical thing within a 10 mile radius!

For instance, one day we were incrementally reconstructing his 1955 Honda Accord (according to his engineering expertise) while he was recalling the story of Gomer and Hosea and how God's tender mercies, unending love, and ultimate forgiveness are constantly waiting for us. Now picture this. Here I am, a bony kneed, bright eyed six year old, clinging to his every word and storing his every movement into my mental vault of unforgettable information. I distinctly remember standing at his right hip, leaning over just like him, peering under the hood, and nodding as his words swayed from Biblical Truths to expositional blurbs about mechanics.

I'd clutch the piston ring I was cleaning and he'd move his weighty, loving glance from the car to the work I was doing and tell me I was doing a great job. He'd even ask me what I thought that part did, then he'd teach me how and why it worked. Just as the peach ice cream picture portrays, my Papaw works with tenderness, passion and purpose in everything he does.

I know this because I got to be his little shadow for years. However, he never placed me behind him, and other than trying to follow in his long strides, I was always beside him. There is a depth and presence to him, even in the simple act of nurturing his peach and apple trees, he could reveal the complex intricacies of life by unassumingly braiding life lessons into every action. Papaw has an incredible knack for teaching and dispelling his wisdom by taking riducoulously complex ideas and displaying them in palatable, processable ways... even for a six year old.

I adore my Papaw. I think it's the anticipation of experiencing Papaw's unfathomable love and captivating lessons that causes my heart to pump with wild delight each time I turn onto his driveway and hear the crackles and pops of shifting gravel beneath my car. I know that as soon as I exit my car, my thought patterns and belief systems will be challenged to shift and adjust, just as the gravel had only moments ago. Even at twenty years old, I still run to the garage door, skip up the steps, and tear through the kitchen to meet their warm embrace.

I truly love them.

Read More 4 thoughtful people jotted me a note | Posted by The Following

Moleskine Overflow

Consider The Following

Please remember that not all perspectives and/or ideas can be shown simultaneously and that a major purpose of this space is to initiate conversations, elicit thought, and share reflections. So, let me/us know what you think

ity bity tid bits from CO Project '09

Papaw's Peach Ice Cream

Moleskine Overflow

Consider The Following

Blog Archive

Plunder this Moleskine

Followers

tunes ;]

My Blog List

Labels

Search